I Feel Dead Like Nothing Is Real?
Question by Makenna: I feel dead like nothing is real?
I feel completely dead. I don’t feel emotions anymore I say I am sad but I am not actually sad I say I am happy but I am not. I say I am mad but I am not. Sometimes I look down and wonder whose arms are those or feel lost. Sometimes my friends say I do crazy things that I normally wouldn’t do just things totally not me, that I don’t rememeber. I feel like I am viewing everything differently in a way I don’t know how to explain. I have bad concentration issues in class or at home really anywhere, where I look at something and I can’t stop zoning out thinking of nothing and I don’t snap out of it for awhile. When Iam alone throught cracks in the door I see dead people. When I walk pass my brothers room he always has clothes hanging up on the door I see a dead man hanging in those clothes. At night when i am in bed I feel like tons of people are watching me, they say when you wake up early in the morning its because someone is watching you. I am also very depressed and I guess mood swings or something. I’ve been inpatient in mental facilities 3 times. They always diagnosed me with BPD which I think they diagnose everyone with. They gave me tons of pills and I stopped taking them for almost a year. Recently my face was burning I felt so so warm like I was on fire. I couldn’t stop crying for hours and didn’t eat anything for a few days, I was watching myself from sixth person and I ranaway. after that my parents got me seeing a psychiatrist again. He doesn’t know whats wrong with me no ones giving me help or a diagnosis. I don’t understand its getting worse to where I make bad choices…Sometimes im super happy than I want to kill myself. but anyways he says I dissociate and he thinks I have dissociative identity disorder. I always hear different things about it but it doesn’t seem right. he gave me 300 mg of wellbuetrin I think that’s what its called and it makes me focus and feel so smart and yell out answers in class even if theyre wrong. It makes me happy but sad too and not hungry.my home life isn’t the best but not the worst I am adopted because I guess my birth father was in a gang and threatened to kill me while my birthmom was pregnant with me. she had two other kids at the time.. she moved and put me up for adoption and had another kid after me. I was adopted when I was a baby from what seemed to be the perfect family to my birthmom. my adoptive parents got divorced I live with my dad now and hes never home never makes dinner I do not remember my childhood whatsoever. my brother has been in jail several times rehab and is basically a dealer he somewhat got me into drugs…… then I started helping him my adoptive dad and mom do not love me it is not true no matter what anyone says my brother and I aren’t what they want. this may sound selfish or spoiled but they don’t buy us nescities like clothes or school supplies my dad groans everytime he pays for something. he has money but he spends it all on his girlfriend. its along story but there is narc on to me and I know of one girl who snitched on me, said everything I have been doing and now the police are on to me! last Friday my dad told me Kansas child services called and opened a case on me I don’t know if its the trouble I got into or my home life because we’ve had child services called on us a lot… I just don’t think I belong here or anywhere. I always disappoint people and tired of hurting them.. my birthmom wants me back after I told her everything she thinks she was lied to what my adoptive parents gave to her like the interview. I want to be with her but I would go somewhere where they haven’t been with me my whole life and I have to pretend I know them and everythings okay. im just wondering why I am like this why me.. I haven’t told everything that’s happened to me but basically my life is falling apart for many reasons……. I want it to stop I feel like everything unlucky and bad you could think of happends to me.
Best answer:
Answer by Don’t click on me
6 bedroom house is just material…
My Grandmom’s house was burned down… because my Aunt sold
the house to drug addict people.
and our life will eventually change. so we need to learn to let go.
Your parents can’t get along anymore.
You can start over… what is wrong with that?
Forget friends…
start studying, get a tutor to help you.
My math tutor helped me a lot… he was sooo helpful. Helped me get good grades
Stop feeling depress… get better.
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